My Equine Friend Cleo
Really, there’s just no other way to put it.
I understand in some cases a little bit of fear is good. It keeps you grounded and on your toes. It helps you maintain a higher level of caution that can prevent things from going terribly wrong. But fear can’t be so strong it keeps us from trying something new in the first place. If it’s that strong and we pass on new opportunities, we’re not just playing it safe—we’re missing out on an incredible chance for growth and happiness.
I can’t help but […]
Announcing my new project: The Compassionate Home
Believe in Possibilities
I’ve been resisting change lately, which is unusual. Normally I crave it. Normally I look forward to the adventure and possibility of it. Instead, this new rebellion of my soul to fight against everything that is shifting has been uncomfortable and frustrating.
It’s summer break here. The kids are out of school. My husband is working longer hours, my son is training as a mechanic’s apprentice and welder in his grandfather’s shop, and my daughter is home all the time. It’s been a struggle to adapt to the new schedules and routines. Plus I’ve lost a lot […]
Committing to a summer of exploring the impact of our physical environment on health and well-being...
Every person who goes out into the world to work, teach, or participate in life comes from a home that is either supportive and nurturing or chaotic and stressful. At the end of the day, each person returns to this same environment, hoping to refuel and replenish. If they live in the latter circumstance, I must ask: How can we contribute love, positive energy, and compassion to the world if we leave our front doors each day feeling depleted?
It’s been a rough couple of weeks around here! True to my word, though, I’ve decided to show up […]
Eradicate self-criticism + share the struggle...
Overcoming my fear of being in front of the camera.
Even when you dedicate yourself to healing, it ain't all rainbows and sunshine!
Last fall I quit posting to my blog because I was consumed by writing my memoir, but also because I felt I was slipping up in my progress towards healing from my own traumas, severe depression, and physical manifestations of stress.
While I was writing about some of the traumatic moments of my life, there were days—sometimes even weeks—where I felt that my internal spark had gone out. Revisiting the most painful moments of my life […]
Growing despite deep wounds...
Morning Miles: Natureland County Park 5.15.13
Yesterday I woke with a stiff back and sore knee. The 5 miles I walked the day before for the beginning of my Morning Miles weren't kind to my body. If I just keep moving, though, I know I'll work out the muscle cramps and sore joints. Staying sedentary only seems to make things worse. I also realize I should have prepared myself a little more--but really, I thought I was ready. I've been sporadically walking approximately 2 miles every other day before officially starting this project.
Determined to push through the pain, […]
With each step I clear the chaos in my mind, reconnect to my body, and come back to myself...
Compelled Towards the Bridge : Photo taken by Darcey Rojas 5-14-13
I’ll just keep walking, regardless of my “obligations” because this is what I need to do today to come back to myself.
(from my journal - August 2011)
Sometimes that is all I can do.
I wake up, and once the kids are off to school or I have a moment to slip away from everything that is begging for my attention—I walk.
I put one foot in front of the other until I feel strong enough to keep going. I breathe in the fresh air, […]
The moment when we decide to make a dramatic shift with our lives...
Zicatela Beach, Puerto Escondido, Oaxaca, Mexico - December 2010
Have You Had Your Harajuku Moment?
“Harajuku Moment = the moment when we decide to make a dramatic shift with our lives to improve our health, diet, fitness goals and mental stability.”
~ Tim Ferriss, author of The 4 Hour Work Week
When I first read this quote, I thought, “I’ve had several of those!” But for some reason, the decision to change never really stuck until my body broke. It wasn’t until I was lying in bed with a herniated disc, unable to walk, sit, or stand—consumed by depression […]
Reflecting on Mother's Day and the gift of forgiveness...
My mother and I on a Florida vacation in 1995, a year before I "divorced" her.
After writing my last post about the complicated layers of Mother’s Day, I felt compelled to write another that talked about forgiveness. I even intended to post that article this weekend as a gift in honor of my deceased mother this Mother’s Day. But I couldn’t do it. Something bothered me after writing it and sending it off for feedback to my writing coach, Linda Joy Myers.
It’s just not as simple as that, I thought to myself. While I do feel forgiveness towards […]
My struggle to navigate the complicated emotions that surface on Mother's Day
My Mother: Laura Redner 1956 - 2004
For those of us who have had tumultuous relationships with our mothers over the years, the date on the calendar marked Mother’s Day can be an occasion filled with complicated emotions. It may bring up feelings of resentment and guilt, loss and abandonment, countermarked with the greeting card industry’s idea that you should be overflowing with love and gratitude for all your “mother” has done to bring you into this world—because of course without her—you wouldn’t be here.
Add on the probability that you may be a mother by now as well—and you […]
Putting myself out there, openly receiving feedback, and moving forward!
photo courtesy of tripadvisor.com
On Friday, April 12th, I attended the 24th Annual Writers Institute at the Concourse Hotel in beautiful downtown Madison, Wisconsin. A month prior to that, I paid my registration fees, and signed up to pitch my memoir to two different agents: Gordon Warnock and Marilyn Atlas. I then proceeded to have minor panic attacks up until the very moment I pitched on Friday at 3:24 pm, even though everyone assured me that I had nothing to worry about. Each time I panicked, I was told my story is timely, it deals with current events, it’s […]