Monthly Archives: May 2013


I Have Bad Days Too

Eradicate self-criticism + share the struggle...

Overcoming my fear of being in front of the camera

Overcoming my fear of being in front of the camera.

 

Even when you dedicate yourself to healing, it ain't all rainbows and sunshine!

Last fall I quit posting to my blog because I was consumed by writing my memoir, but also because I felt I was slipping up in my progress towards healing from my own traumas, severe depression, and physical manifestations of stress.

While I was writing about some of the traumatic moments of my life, there were days—sometimes even weeks—where I felt that my internal spark had gone out. Revisiting the most painful moments of my life […]



Morning Miles : Natureland County Park 5.15.13

Growing despite deep wounds...

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Morning Miles: Natureland County Park 5.15.13

Yesterday I woke with a stiff back and sore knee. The 5 miles I walked the day before for the beginning of my Morning Miles weren't kind to my body. If I just keep moving, though, I know I'll work out the muscle cramps and sore joints. Staying sedentary only seems to make things worse. I also realize I should have prepared myself a little more--but really, I thought I was ready. I've been sporadically walking approximately 2 miles every other day before officially starting this project.

Determined to push through the pain, […]



Morning Miles

With each step I clear the chaos in my mind, reconnect to my body, and come back to myself...

Compelled Towards the Bridge

Compelled Towards the Bridge : Photo taken by Darcey Rojas 5-14-13
Morning Miles
I’ll just keep walking, regardless of my “obligations” because this is what I need to do today to come back to myself.
 (from my journal - August 2011)
 

Sometimes that is all I can do.

I wake up, and once the kids are off to school or I have a moment to slip away from everything that is begging for my attention—I walk.

I put one foot in front of the other until I feel strong enough to keep going. I breathe in the fresh air, […]



Have You Had Your Harajuku Moment?

The moment when we decide to make a dramatic shift with our lives...

Zicatela Beach, Puerto Escondido, Oaxaca, Mexico - December 2010

Zicatela Beach, Puerto Escondido, Oaxaca, Mexico - December 2010
Have You Had Your Harajuku Moment?
“Harajuku Moment = the moment when we decide to make a dramatic shift with our lives to improve our health, diet, fitness goals and mental stability.”
~ Tim Ferriss, author of The 4 Hour Work Week
 
When I first read this quote, I thought, “I’ve had several of those!” But for some reason, the decision to change never really stuck until my body broke. It wasn’t until I was lying in bed with a herniated disc, unable to walk, sit, or stand—consumed by depression […]



The Distance Between Us

Reflecting on Mother's Day and the gift of forgiveness...

My mother and I on a Florida vacation in 1995, a year before I "divorced" her.

My mother and I on a Florida vacation in 1995, a year before I "divorced" her.

After writing my last post about the complicated layers of Mother’s Day, I felt compelled to write another that talked about forgiveness. I even intended to post that article this weekend as a gift in honor of my deceased mother this Mother’s Day. But I couldn’t do it. Something bothered me after writing it and sending it off for feedback to my writing coach, Linda Joy Myers.

It’s just not as simple as that, I thought to myself. While I do feel forgiveness towards […]



Mother’s Day Can Be Complicated

My struggle to navigate the complicated emotions that surface on Mother's Day

My Mother: Laura Redner 1956 - 2004

My Mother: Laura Redner 1956 - 2004

For those of us who have had tumultuous relationships with our mothers over the years, the date on the calendar marked Mother’s Day can be an occasion filled with complicated emotions. It may bring up feelings of resentment and guilt, loss and abandonment, countermarked with the greeting card industry’s idea that you should be overflowing with love and gratitude for all your “mother” has done to bring you into this world—because of course without her—you wouldn’t be here.

Add on the probability that you may be a mother by now as well—and you […]